i usually always want to write. on the blog. i'm always up for a new blog post.
whenever i have time, it's something i want to do.
today, i don't want to blog. i dont' want to write. because i'm so frustrated. and disappointed in myself.
week eleven in training was awful. mostly because i didn't run nearly enough miles, and at that, my long run was absent. basically life happened, again, yes, and there was no time to fit in a 3 hour run. what worked for me, didn't for the running partner, and what worked for her, didn't work for me. no excuse. that's why i'm disappointed in myself. i should have just done it. argh. but, reality is, i didn't.
so, here i sit, after week eleven feeling like a crappy trainee. i hate guilt.
but, instead of dwelling on crappy week eleven, i'm going to stay positive and look ahead to week twelve. i can't go back in time, i can't make up the miles, so i might as well just move forward. i only have 3 weeks until the race, and 26.2 is looking to be more difficult than ever before. i still believe i can do it, but i need some confidence, and that sure didn't happen last week. so i'm hoping after a solid week 12 i will feel as if i'm 'back on track'.
this is what i'm thinking. BIG 4-0. that's right. i'm determined to log 40 miles this week and determined to finish out the month of september on a good foot - literally, a good foot.
note to self: everytime i choose not to run because of the weather, or because i will 'do it later' or because i will just take wednesday off, rather than thursday, it never ends up being a positive decision. face it: stick to the schedule, and you won't regret anything.
so goodbye eleven - that awful week that you were and the busy schedule that kept me from running - i will show you what's up in week twelve!