Tuesday, April 8, 2014

big boy beds and random thoughts.

i really stuggle with the titles of blog posts. probably because it's part of my job to come up with clever titles, and by the time i blog, i just don't care about that anymore.
so lots of random tessa thoughts.
 banks has a big boy bed, and to say he LOVES it is an understatement. He spent 3+ hours last night asking me to play ( in his bed) and every time we weren't in his room he would say "Come, mommy, I show you my big boy bed."
Big boy bed, this. big boy bed, that. let's just hope this crapping in my bed/room thing ends SOON. it's happened once again since the last post.
this time in his diaper, but afterward, he thought it would be a good idea to take his diaper off, which consisted of the biggest mess we've seen yet. nothing like a shitty 7a wake-up call on a Saturday morning.
Needless to say, putting banks in his new bed was bittersweet. he is SO BIG. so smart. (except for the potty thing). and we are so proud of him. he truly is one hilarious kid, that no matter how much trouble he may cause due to his outgoing personality, he will put a smile on your face and make it nearly impossible to want to punish him, even after cleaning poo for over an hour.

ncaa basketball is officially over. the tournament was less than awesome this year since both of our favorite teams were eliminated early, but there is still nothing like college basketball, nor will there ever be. one shining moment still makes me cry.
i want to look like  UConn's Ryan Boatright's mom when Banks is 20+ yrs. That'd be nice.
oh, yeah... the women play for the national title tonight, but I'm so ready to see a 7 or 8 seed in women's basketball make an uproar in the tournament. I'm over Geno.
b and i spent all day Saturday in Norwich with Nana and Papa and visited the Norwich carnvial. We went last year, as well, and it was so fun to see how much banks has changed in a year. he was able to interact and understand most of the games and pick out his own prizes. so big! 
he adores his time with nana and papa. 

baby name drama.
yea. i'm pathetic. i know this, so it's okay since I'll admit it, right?
 so..... although i still have 50+ baby names on a list that i keep, we had decided on first names awhile back. if you know what they are then you are either my mom, or one of my bestest friends. I keep them tight, because i have a rule ( a pathetic rule ).
I wont' use a name if I know ANYONE that has the name or has a child with the name that i have any sort of ties with. Of course, I'm sure ALL of the names I have picked out have been used before, I'm 100% sure of that.
Oh, did I tell you that I know more than 10 people that have had babies in the past 2 weeks? Yea. That's a lot. 3 of them on the same day.  And by the looks of it, things aren't going to slow down... it's in the water - and I drank it.
Well, our boy name. It was used. AND it was used by someone with the last name, dare I say it.... Konen.
Yep. Heartbreak at it's finest. I was so sad.
So, back to the drawing board (at least for boy names). This stresses me out to no end, and it's a bit ridiculous. 
after (almost) a year of looking, i found a fiddle leaf fig. ahhhh. i bought it and now I'm looking for the perfect pot for it to call it's home. happy spring ya'll.
i have a lot of other random thoughts.
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Wednesday, April 2, 2014

our favorite visitor!

this weekend was the BEST.
our family has always been close, and we rarely did things on the weekends without one another. even after the brother and i were out of school. his junior and senior years consisted of road trips to hutch to watch my games, and then after i was done playing, my weekends consisted of road trips to watch the brother play at barton.
we saw each other almost weekly or at least a couple of times a month during those first 4 years after moving out of the parents' home. the last two years, not so much. Dennan is a Grad Assistant (GA) for - dare i say it - K-State. We both pick on each other quite a bit, especially during basketball season. the brother was once an obsessed Tyrel Reed fan and owned his fair share of KU t-shirts, but now has been turned into a purple monster. I'll forgive him, as long as he lands some high-paying, DI job after his last year of grad school.
Anyways, despite his choice in college, our family misses him dearly during basketball season. He's on the road or in Bramlage every weekend starting in November until KSU decides to leave the NCAA tournament - usually late March.
We Facetime wtih 'Uncle Dennan' a couple of times a week and Banks loves it. He asks almost daily to see Uncle Dennan. Well, the Cats lost... as did our Shockers and Jayhawks, and the brother finally had some down time and came to visit us last weekend. 
It was just like old times, family times, the ones that I thought were 'annoying', but now would trade-in for anything.
Mom cooked us homemade meals all weekend, we sat like bums on the couch and watched basketball. I didn't wear an ounce of makeup, and sweats and t-shirts were a must. We cracked jokes and all was good. Banks LOVED having Uncle Dennan around. He was fascinated with Dennan's toothpaste, and wanted to do everything dennan did, including brushing his teeth with grown-up toothpaste (minimal). He wanted Dennan to dress him, golf with him, tickle him, give him rides and follow him everywhere he went. 
Dennan "this kid wears you out"

Yes. yes, he does.
But, it was awesome. 
So, happy (early) birthday to our favorite brother and uncle! We love you. 


In other news: Banks woke up in the middle of the night last night. took his pjs & diaper off. crapped on the floor. climbed back into bed and went back to sleep  naked.
I'm about to lose my mind.
We start swimming lessons tonight!!! Banks keeps saying "go swimming with the fishes!!!!"
he has already put his swim trunks in his very own backpack labeled 'banks' and is ready to roll. mom didn't time things quite right....because i had to purchase a maternity swimsuit last night so that i can join in on the lessons. wearing a swimsuit in public 25-29 weeks pregnant will not be the most flattering sight anyone has ever seen.... hopefully the water comes up to about my neck!
  25 weeks!
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Wednesday, March 26, 2014


It's not for everyone. It's definitely not for me. But for our son, Banks, nudity is a daily occurrence with no shame attached.
In fact, he is very proud of himself most of the time, especially when he is nude.
We've been battling the do we or don't we potty train issue lately. I was all for the 'it will happen when they are ready for it' method', but lately we've gotten stuck in the middle.
Things B wants to do CONSTANTLY:
brush his teeth
wash his hands
sit on the toilet
take a bath
These are all great things to want to do, but they are deceiving.
Brushing our teeth can mean two things:
Sucking the toothpaste off the brush and saying "I'm all done."
running around the house with a toothbrush (and BLUE toothpaste) for 15+ minutes and brushing furniture, carpet, toys or anything but his teeth.
Sitting on the toilet is the same. it doesn't mean GOING to the bathroom in the toilet. I think maybe out of the 500 + times we've sat on the toilet, we've gone maybe 3. Not the ratio I'm going for.
Lately, B has taken even more interest in the toilet and nudity. Many have said "Banks is always pantless in your photos". Yes, that' is true. Almost immediately after he gets home from daycare he either A) Takes his pants off or B) We change his diaper and he refuses to put his pants back on.
From about 6-9PM he is running around with diaper + shirt  + rainboots (another blog post) if we are lucky.
But, most of the time we catch him with no diaper on. He will rip that sucker off in a heartbeat and therefore we have a nude baby. This nude baby has also been (DARE I SAY IT) going #2 on the floor.
It's bad. It's so bad. I can tell you this may be the first motherly dilemma that I haven't had an answer to. Not saying I always have the best answer (because I don't), but i have NO answer.
This brings me to last night. The worst it's been.
Banks hadn't gone #2 all day, so we knew that he needed to go. He got up from playing and told us "I have to go poopy"
Yay. Progress.
We sat on the toilet, nude, for a good 15-20 minutes and read stories. Nothing happened and he was DONE sitting on the toilet. diaper + rainboots on and he goes off to play ... in his room. not even 5 minutes later, he runs out of his room COMPLETELY NUDE and said I pooped!!!!!!!!!  he was excited.
I go to his room and sure enough the kid took a #2 (this was the 5th time this has happened)  on his carpet in his room. I could explain all of the thoughts and feelings I had at this point in time, but there are too many. We discussed what happened, explained it wasn't good... etc.
Diaper back on + rainboots..... 30 minutes of playing (in our sight) and then the kid took his diaper off, pooped on the floor and told us once again all in the matter of one VOICE performance. That's 2- minutes. 
And, then it was Wednesday. The sun came up today. 
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Wednesday, March 19, 2014

life as of late.

it's a good day. winter will be over tomorrow. if only that meant the 70+ temps would stay. 
we've  i've began the nesting phase with baby k #2. after our 22 week sonogram, i think i realized this was REALLY happening and that we were more than halfway cooked with the new babe.
the sonogram went well and we got to see our little babe. little is right. after delivering the 8 lb 11.5oz chunk of banks, i figured this one would be right there along with b. the dr. said the babe is in the 30th percentile for week #22. i understand we still have a ways to go, but this was a surprise to me (and also relieved a tiny bit of my anxiety going into natural delivery #2.
the heartbeat was 153 and we are still waiting to find out what he or she is! dr. did say that the baby has one enlarged kidney that we will keep an eye on. after doing some research on what this might mean, i'm steering away from google and going with lots of prayers and patience until we can do some follow-up exams later down the road to make sure it's nothing to worry about.
we can't wait to meet you, baby!!! and for the record, i'm going to guess boy. it's a 50/50 shot, right?

Dr. K is the best. So thankful to have such a great doc.

our beloved nana and papa have the week off this week for spring break, so they've of course have done what every person wants to do on spring break: hang out with the grandchild and help prepare for their second. i cannot begin to explain what a blessing it is to have such great parents who unknowingly express a huge amount of love by their daily actions. they never miss a beat, always stopping to see banks when they visit the grocery store, or have 10 extra minutes on their way somewhere east of wichita. it means the world to us that banks is so loved.
that being said, i got a daily DAILY text & emails from papa last week about taking banks fishing over spring break.
"what day does banks want to fish in between basketball games this weekend?"
yes. in between basketball games, duh.
"hey banks, what time are we going fishing tomorrow?"
papa was excited. and so was banks.
we had a fabulous time fishing with papa and nana. we caught 10 fish in about an hour! crappie, bluegill and trout! they were biting like crazy, which was great to keep banks entertained. he's still learning the whole patience thing that goes along with fishing. so am i.

nana spent the day with banks on monday, and did what i should have done during the weekend - cleaned the kitchen, did my laundry and more than i could ever ask for. she's the best.
tuesday papa painted the nursery - neon mint (ekkk!) - which i'm in love with.
today i bought the baby's crib & dresser. today i'm 23 weeks pregnant. after helping the sister in law register for her upcoming baby shower, which i'm so excited to host!!, i've realized it's time to get out the good ole' baby gear. 
17 more to go.

and happy march  madness to all!!! rock chalk, go shocks!
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Thursday, February 13, 2014

seventeen & eighteen

due to the ridiculous amount of snow, i was forced to reschedule my 17 week appt. and saw Dr. K a little closer to the 18 mark.
holy, almost halfway.whew.
this kid is already throwing curve balls with a heartbeat that is fluctuating, that even those who believe in wives tales couldn't make an accurate assumption about the sex of baby k #2. 
we started our appts with a 178, then 164  and now a heartbeat of 152 just shy of 18 weeks.
i looked back to week #17 with Banks   and his heartbeat was 158.
this game of numbers is just plain crazy.
i've been feeling baby K#2 move quite a bit this week, especially after sweets! 
i'm so thankful and so blessed for this movement as i pondered upon this blog 
last night as i scrolled through Facebook before bed.  don't read it unless you have a box of tissues in hand. but, please read it and please pray for this brave family who experienced something so awful.
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Thursday, February 6, 2014


with banks are the happiest moments of my day.
most days, we talk on our 15 minute ride to daycare about school buses, trucks, snow and rain and sometimes sunshine - "eyes hurt, so bright" is usually the way the 'moon' is described. 

and then on the way home i will ask b how his day was. usually he'll just start talking jibberish and will say "see nana, see daddy, see papa, see hadley", which obviously doesn't answer my question.

then, the other day, when i asked him 'how was your day?' he responded.


"What did you do today?"

"Play with Camden."

"What did you play?"

"We played with toys."

"Was it fun?"

"Playing toys is fun."

we had a conversation and it was awesome. and it made me realize how smart and witty this little boy is becoming.

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Sunday, January 26, 2014


Banks and I seem to be on the same page lately : we're growing.

His growth is a little more flattering than mine, though.

A few months ago I pinned a growth chart I was going to make - simple and easy, but then found the same thing for cheaper than I could make it, which rarely happens. Then a few weeks later my father-in-law gave me his kids' growth chart with all the markings. So now we are keeping track on both. 

M&Ms for standing still - marking B's height is quite a task

B is 3 days shy of 26 months and is measuring 34.75".
Garrett measured 35" at 36 months - short stuff, and I was 33" at 24 months.
Our first baby is getting so BIG! He's no longer this chubby chunk....

he's such a tall, lean handsome boy....

... and while the boy grows up, momma's belly is growing OUT - it's a bump people! 

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